Catching Up

So here's the scoop.
Tuesday was my b-day. I went to work. The boys bought me flowers and a cake (which they consumed before I got a piece - but that's ok, because I didn't need to eat it anyway). So after work, I had a Joan appointment. It went ok. However, on the way home, as in I had been driving all of 30 seconds, I turned the corner onto the main street and had to power steering. My alternator guage was on the lowest of the low and my temp guage was super high. I called Boo to see what to do, but he didn't pick up. I decided to just drive as far as I could get. I managed to get home (yay!) and backed in the driveway (for ease of tow-ability). Did I mention that it was pouring rain? Yeah. So I grabbed a bunch of my stuff out of it and went in the house. Boo came home and looked at it and said that the serpentine belt had slipped off. So we get back in the house and he hands me some cash and says happy birthday. I was already crabby so this pissed me off. Like you can't even buy me a card? Grrrr. Then we go to dinner at a place I didn't want to be and ran into the JJs. Nice. The meal made me feel icky. We went home and I went to bed.

Wednesday, Boo got up early (before me) to go to an auction. I was going to drive the other jeep, but he didn't know if it had gas, so I ended up with his car. He called me after I got to work and told me that he was glad I didn't take the jeep because the top blew off while he was driving down the e-way. And it was 11 degrees outside. I had a doctor's appointment that morning and of course, I'm 7 pounds heavier than the last time I was there. But hopefully, the running will help with that. Boo got a BBF mechanic to come over after work and fix my ride. We got a pizza and chilled on the couch. Except Boo ate 1/2 a PB and chocolate cookie (like PB balls only in bar form with melted chocolate chips on top). I didn't want the other half, but he didn't put it in the fridge. And then it was gone. So we ripped the house apart looking for it because I didn't want anyone eating the chocolate. It was no where to be found. T finally found it stashed behind the piano. Bless him. He didn't get more than a bite, but I was so glad he found it.

Thursday, I coughed all day. By Thursday night, I felt horrible.

Which brings us to today. Sick as a dog. I left work early. I've got a fever and a real nice cough.

I need to get back to the gratitude journal. But I just need to wallow today.

Teh Monday

I didn't sleep very well this weekend. I kept waking up every couple of hours. Today, I'm wiped and my sciatica is crazy, which in turn is making my whiny and anxious. Great. On the plus side, my whole left side of my back is all tense and crunched up. Which is what it did before and it went away. I just need to keep telling myself that it'll go away again. It's not here forever.

Tomorrow is 36. Fuck. I never wanted to be 36. It triggers a lot of painful stuff for me. My mother was 36 when I was born and well, since I'm responsible for ruining her life and fucking everything up, well, yeah. So happy flipping birthday. 36 just represents everything that's wrong with my life. It's hard to explain. I'm just over it. I wish I could stay 35 or skip to 37 or something. Wait - isn't this the start of my 37th year? I'll have to do the math. Boy am I exhausted. I'm not even making sense.

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March 9 I'm grateful that I don't feel too too bad after not getting much sleep over the weekend
March 8 Grateful for jammy day
March 7 Grateful for a 4 hour nap

Friday

March 6 I'm grateful for warm weather. It's 60° today!

March 5

March 5 I am grateful for coffee.
March 4 It's sunny and somewhat warm today (35°). Wahoo!
March 3 That I have a job that I like.
March 2 Being able to have lunch with my kids. Nothing better than some cuddles, a sammich, and some Y & R.
March 1 I have an awesome hubby and we spent the whole day together - dawg show, gym, grocery store and finally back home.

March 4

March 4 It's sunny and somewhat warm today (35°). Wahoo!

Teh Tuesday

March 3 That I have a job that I like.

March 2 Being able to have lunch with my kids. Nothing better than some cuddles, a sammich, and some Y & R.

March 1 I have an awesome hubby and we spent the whole day together - dawg show, gym, grocery store and finally back home.

Monday

March 2 Being able to have lunch with my kids. Nothing better than some cuddles, a sammich, and some Y & R.
March 1 I have an awesome hubby and we spent the whole day together - dawg show, gym, grocery store and finally back home.